Depression is a part of me.
It isn’t here because something is wrong, its just a piece of me that isn’t going away. I surrender to it – and in that I become aware, and know how to manage my behavior in spite of it.
It changes me in two very distinct ways.
Depression makes me a very good editor. I do not mean that sarcastically either. My eye for detail increases, and I can see holes in my work I hadn’t seen earlier. I appreciate this part of it because I generally rush things, and because of that, I miss out on opportunities to improve. This levels it out.
Deep diving becomes more of a thing for me. I know it is starting to come into my life because I read Yahoo’s front page more often. As a matter of fact, I become too up to date with the general news. Now, I know more about gossip,sports,and heart wrenching stories than I ever care to admit.
In a weird way it becomes a part of my creative cycle. It sucks, but it makes me a more complete creative when it happens. People worry because I tend to stay inside when it strikes. Its a defense mechanism, I am quick to anger when this falls over me.
Those who are worried: continue to reach out. Please, do more of that. Contact with those I love help me out. It gets me into a better mind state, and it makes me even more aware that I have people around me that want me to do well.
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